You're Not As Messed Up As You Think You Are

Iris | ♀ | 15 | UU

My life centers around doing too much and then not doing any of it while simultaneously finishing it all.



In which Martha Jones asks a perfectly reasonable question, and the Doctor brushes her off.

Ok, no. Just no. I hardly ever add comments to posts outside the tags, but as Ten’s appointed guardian angel, lawyer, and protector, I can’t stand by. Your “i hate ten” tag really put me over the edge, as it became a personal attack on my Doctor rather than an initiation of discussion.

I won’t deny Ten was a bit insensitive, even harsh at times, with Martha. David touched on the topic at one point, and I’m definitely on board with his gentle rebuke of the Doctor and the feeling that it makes his character that much more real, to be flawed and to have moments of weakness. BUT, I’m going to refer you to this post and this post which I feel are lovely collections of examples in which the Doctor demonstrates respect for her, concern for her well-being, and rightfully compliments some of her many stellar personality traits; this post because that is NOT a hug that harbors any amount of dislike or disrespect; this post in which Freema and David discuss the Doctor starting to trust her enough to open up about his fears; and this post because despite how bad you think their relationship got or which of the two (or both) you blame, I think people tend to over-emphasize it - it wasn’t all dysfunctional. 

Without a doubt, their friendship came at a bad time for them both - the Doctor was fresh off the experience of losing Rose and had to deal with quite a few other traumatic things during season 3, most notably being the Master, a cruel specter to haunt him with things he’d so much like to forget - the Time War and the corrupted Time Lords. But these scenes are both taken out of context and juxtaposed in a way that just does not portray their relationship in an accurate light, at all. Let’s take each scene and unwrap the surrounding dialog and think of it in the context of the show and the characters as a whole. (Very sorry - this is where I’d have a “read more” if I could put one. As this isn’t my post, I cannot.)

1) In the first example, the Doctor is by no means “brushing off” her question. In fact, they’ve only just stepped outside onto the patio, and he doesn’t yet know what’s keeping the air in yet, either. It’s mere minutes after these gifs take place that he throws an object away from the hospital to discover there’s a force field surrounding them. Thus, they both find out the answer to her question together. I’d also like to point out that only seconds after these gifs, Martha asks him “What do you think happened?” and he answers back “What do you think?” both while making eye contact and being thoroughly engaged with listening to her response.

Because he’s already seen it - she’s an intelligent, creative, and intriguing woman and I think he’d honestly like to know, ever since they had the conversation about the air not escaping from the windows a few minutes earlier. During this conversation, he also expressed condolences for her cousin, admits he was at the battle of Canary Wharf, and tacitly agrees to “earn that title” (of the Doctor) by saying “I’d better make a start then.” He doesn’t push it on her, but waits for her to feel comfortable calling him the Doctor. Later, she asks him “what happens when [the air] runs out?” and he has no problem admitting everyone in the hospital will suffocate. No, he’s not “ignoring” her questions in this episode, not by ANY MEANS.

2) In the second example, I’m not even sure what you were trying to prove here. The Doctor hardly ever explains how time travel works, not to anyone. It’s too complicated, and he’s had centuries to learn it all and arguably a more advanced brain than humans do, so he never really answers questions about it, not really. I’d like to bring up Nine and Rose’s conversation from season one, in which Rose asks: “We’ve moved… does it fly?” and the Doctor answers “Disappears there, reappears here. You wouldn’t understand.” Not saying the Doctor was the most sensitive or understanding about it, in either case, but rather trying to point out that he doesn’t have a penchant for explaining the inner workings of his time ship to humans. At the very least, not before he’s come to know them quite well, and in this case, the Doctor’s only known Martha for less than a day - this occurs at the very start of The Shakespeare Code, which follows directly upon their meeting in the hospital in Smith and Jones.

I’d like to point out yet ANOTHER scene from the immediate context of these gifs, and that’s just after they’ve stepped out of the TARDIS. Martha, worried about interfering with the future, asks “Is it safe? Can we move around and stuff?” To which the Doctor replies, “Of course we can… why do you ask?” Again, both ATTENTIVE and INTERESTED in what she’s asking as well as WHY. You might say, well, Britt, he makes a joke after that, though. Why, yes, he does. But isn’t that just the Doctor? Once he knows neither of them are in real danger, he’s more free to be casual about his answer. One could also argue he makes a joking response to lighten her mood, to distract her from worrying about changing anything.

And yet one more example, Martha asks “Am I alright? I’m not going to get carted off as a slave or anything?”, voicing a concern that would probably be difficult for many to say at all. The Doctor at first doesn’t know what she means, but later says “Just walk about like you own the place, works for me.” To me, that’s him saying, “they better not. You’re just the same as anyone else here.” The Doctor’s never been good at discussing things that could cause friction, or to broach a topic as politically loaded as this one. What else was he to say - “oh, yeah, you might, better watch out?” He’d never say that. Her skin color doesn’t matter a single iota to him, and he just seems confident that while he’s around, no one will try to tell her differently. He doesn’t always have the right thing to say, I’ll give you that. But he tries. AND HE DOESN’T BRUSH OFF HER QUESTIONS.

3) In the third example, what Martha is asking is deeply personal. And also keep in mind, this is set during Gridlock, which is still only a few days, arguably up to a week, since they met, so they hardly know each other, still. They’ve both just witnessed the death of the Face of Boe, which in my opinion has much more of an impact on the Doctor than Martha, considering he’s seen him before and the message he gave the Doctor. He was already feeling uncomfortable before she started asking him about what it could mean, and if the past two seasons tell us ANYTHING AT ALL it’s that the Doctor is not fond of opening up. He hardly opened up with Rose in season one, and even then, it was only after she prodded a handful of times. Hell, all the way til Fear Her, she didn’t even know that he’d ever been a father. Martha is certainly not the only companion the Doctor is very hesitant to share the still-aching parts of himself with.

To be sure, he could have handled it better, the way he at first denied answering, but he does have a track record for it. Then, there’s the fact that only moments after he says “It really doesn’t matter,” Martha responds, “You don’t talk, you never say. Why not?” And, *gasp*, guess what? He proceeds not only to tell her about Gallifrey and being the last of his kind, properly, but in doing so also owns up to lying to her before, which is not an easy thing for anyone to do. I also feel I should note he PULLS UP A CHAIR to sit and talk with her, meeting her at her level, which I feel speaks volumes in itself. I think he quickly realized he was being insensitive and she deserved an answer, so he gave it to her. So here, really, another issue of taking things out of context.

4) In the fourth example, the first thing I’d like to point out is that in the beginning of this episode (Utopia), the Doctor and Martha actually have quite a lengthy back-and-forth about some time traveling mechanics, in which he’s more than happy to explain anything she wants to know, including where they’re going when the TARDIS goes out of control as Jacks climbs onto it (which simply contradicts the entire point of this gifset, yet again). Aside from that, in the immediate context of these gifs, YES, the Doctor is being quite cold and stand-off-ish regarding the entire situation with Jack. And though I don’t fully understand his responses to Jack, especially when he personally asks why he left him behind on Satellite Five, I think his attitude does seem to be directed at Jack (or what Jack is) rather than Martha. In fact, I’m not sure it really has anything to do with Martha at all.

I do know two things: first, Jack being a fixed point in time, for some reason, scares the pants off the Doctor. I can’t lie and say I fully understand why, but he certainly does, as he even admits later when he and Jack are alone: “How long have you known?” Jack asks, and the Doctor responds “Ever since I ran away from you.”and later “It’s why I left you behind…. Just looking at you, Jack… you’re wrong.” He proceeds to explain that it’s “instinct” for him to flee from Jack’s permanence, and that it was the TARDIS trying to shake him off led to them landing in the year 100 trillion. Perhaps he waited until they were away from Martha, simply because he didn’t want to bring up something so inextricably connected to Rose, yet again, in Martha’s presence. He must at least have an inkling Martha’s already grown tired of hearing about the ex-lover (from her perspective). Or perhaps he simply wanted the conversation to be private, which is also perfectly valid (though, I realize it turned out not to be, as the others were listening in, but it remains ambiguous whether the two knew they had eavesdroppers).

So what Martha exactly asks is “you just get bored of us one day and disappear?” and you’ve conveniently left out the VERY IMPORTANT two lines in between this and the Doctor’s response. Jack says “Not if you’re blonde” and Martha adds “Oh, she was blonde! What a surprise!” Now, regardless of how the Doctor is acting a bit rough around the edges in this scene, that was pretty heartless, as well. They BOTH know, Jack more than Martha, what Rose meant to the Doctor, and to bring her up in such a condescending context is definitely not the best way to get an honest answer to such a loaded question. Further still, the Doctor was asked a very similar question by Rose, in School Reunion, when she said, “This is really seeing the future - you just leave us behind. Is that what you’re gonna do to me?” If nothing else, you HAVE to see the parallel phrasing in both of these scenarios, and as the two have just gracelessly brought up Rose explicitly, I should think the Doctor is not at all inclined to answer that question, and I don’t really blame him, actually.

But really, I still say this scene has little to do with a direct assault or neglect of Martha and more with Jack’s now abnormal existence and both of their carless mentioning of Rose. Really, I think he just wanted to put an end to the conversation that had taken a turn for the worse, in his mind. Also it’s important to note they are at “the end of the universe” so the Doctor has a right mind to be wary of their surroundings and not get carried away or waste too much time with chatter rather than figure out what’s going on around them, and if they could be in any danger (which it turns out, of course, they soon are).

5) In the fifth example, Martha’s again asking a question that would require both a large backstory and a fair amount of personal details. Though he opened up about the war and his home planet, as much as we know, earlier in Gridlock, there’s no evidence he mentioned his role in it, or details about his friends and family, or the things he had to do, the consequences and the fallout of the War. Then, there’s the fact that he, too, has only just found out about the Master’s existence. Since the War, he was thoroughly convinced not a single Time Lord was left alive, and I think he’s struggling with the new knowledge and its possible ramifications more than he lets on to the others. 

Add to that the fact that they are in just a *teensy* bit of a rush to find out about Harold Saxon, now the Prime Minister, what he’s been up to and what the Master’s intentions are. The Doctor is, of course, stressing out quite a bit about how exactly he’s going to take the Master on, and doesn’t have all the time in the world to sit down and explain the story, either. Just after he says “that’s all you need to know,” he’s not just off making his “rude and not ginger” club and rolling his eyes, he’s with Jack at the computer trying to find information. That’s not even to say he goes completely rogue and ditches Martha (and Jack, who’s also still here) in the dust, either: only minutes later he talks with them to see what they can infer about his campaign, his purposes: why they wanted to vote for him. 

Also, let me just add to this, only minutes after that, Martha finds out her parents are in danger over the phone. Despite the Doctor believing it’s a trap, he doesn’t hesitate for more than a second to climb into a car (of all things!) and help her.

So just - NO. Please, take your Ten hate and shove it somewhere else, or at least keep it out of the RTD tag. But even if you don’t, I’ll always be there to defend him from your out of context and unfounded bullshit. And that’s not because he’s perfect, or infallible, or because I worship him. He does make mistakes, and he is sometimes less than perfect, not as understanding or delicate as he should be, or is at times too harsh in his rejection of romantic notions, in this case. And I would not deny Martha had to put up with a LOT during her time with the Doctor. But damn it, he cares for her, respects her, KNOWS how intelligent she is, DOES talk with her and engage her in conversation even in the immediate context of these gifs, and would do anything to protect her, in spite of his mistakes while she travels with him.

As I near the end, I want to remind you: I LOVE MARTHA JONES. I’m not trying in any way to undermine her awesomeness, and I certainly hope none of this has come off this way. Also, keep in mind, in case any of you are chewing this over: JOHN SMITH IS NOT THE DOCTOR. END OF STORY. John Smith was undeniably a jerk to Martha, not the Doctor. Even so, if you insist on dwelling on the Doctor’s mistakes during their somewhat rocky relationship, take this as a parting thought: In the end, it’s not just Martha he disappoints or fucks up his sentences around or accidentally offends with his coldness from time to time: it’s nearly all his companions. But that doesn’t stop them, me, or likely many of you all, from loving him all the same.


My humanity is not debatable.






Fourteen years ago, a Death Eater named Bellatrix Lestrange used the Cruciatus Curse on my parents. She tortured them for information, but they never gave in. I’m quite proud to be their son.

This hurts. A lot.

One of the scenes that I will never be able to forget from the book is the scene when they’re at the hospital and Neville’s mother comes and gives him the sweet wrapper. She’s been tortured to insanity, but some part of her, some tiny diamond hard fragment of who she was, smothered by the shattered remains of herself remembers her son enough to want to make him smile.

She gives him a present to make him smile, and you just know Neville took that sweet wrapper home with him and put it in a box with all the other random pieces of rubbish she has given to him over the past 14 years.

This is why Neville’s story makes me hurt much more than Harry. Neville’s parents are still there. He can still see them and touch them, but he can never and will never know what they think of him, of what he has become. But no matter what happens, he will do every damn thing he can to be a man they would be proud of. Even if he’s scared, he will be brave because they were.

Re: Neville will never know what they think of him: it’s interesting that Harry, for all he never knew his parents, interacts with them quite a lot for an orphan. Both the Priori Incantatem spell and the Resurrection Stone let Lily and James talk to Harry. They tell him how brave he is and how proud they are and how much they love him.

Neville gets a bubblegum wrapper.

what the hell made any of you think this was okay

(Source: the-padfoots)

the volume of the soul [Evans Brother’s fic]



I did a continuation of my previous drabble, which can be found here. I hope you all like it! I really do enjoy writing about the Evans brothers.

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Okay but imagine your otps where they don’t plan a pregnancy, but a baby happens so they’re all stressed and bare emotions and it’s the most real they’ve ever been with another person and then there’s little bitty human that is like proof of that deep connection.


Imagine soma.

Anonymous sent:

I really don't think abortion is a good excuse for the lack of care that someone had. Except in cases of rape. But aside from that, there are so many ways to prevent an unwanted pregnancy. Why does a little soul must be punished for lack of oversight of its generators? If you don't want the baby, there's adoption, I think it causes far less suffering than abort, because there are people who really are willing to love this new being. Don't you think? Didn't mean to be rude before or now.




First off, you can be using three forms of protection, and still have an unplanned pregnancy. Birth control is not flawless. It helps, of course, but no matter how responsible someone is being, they can find themselves with an unwanted pregnancy. 

"Well if you choose to have sex you have to be responsible for and accept the possibility you might get pregnant and have a baby. You shouldn’t have sex if you don’t want a child!"

Whether someone gets pregnant when theyre on three forms of birth control or gets pregnant from completely unprotected sex, repeat after me:
Children are not a punishment for sex.

Children are not a punishment for sex.


Pregnancy, childbirth, and parenting are not punishments for sex!!!

We don’t deny smokers cancer treatment because they accepted the risk by smoking, we don’t deny people who got in car accidents medical attention because they took the risk by driving, hell, we don’t even deny criminals who shoot others, and OD on drugs medical attention, so we sure as hell can’t deny a pregnant person medical attention because they took the risk by having sex.

Adoption is a great option, but it only solves the problem of not wanting/being able to parent a child. Not the problem of being pregnant.

Pro-lifers seem to forget that pregnancy and childbirth itself, even if adoption follows, can ruin a person’s life, and is extremely transformative, be it in a positive or negative way. You are never going to be the same once going through that. It changes your body, your hormones, your emotions. Many people experience crippling sickness and complications, causing them to lose their job, lose their home, have to drop out of school, etcetera. Prenatal care is not cheap. Mothers who fall pregnant may struggle to feed their already living breathing feeling children and lower their quality of life if forced to carry a fetus they don’t have the means to provide for or deal with. 

And it all comes down to the fact that people cannot and should not be made to sacrifice their bodies for a pregnancy they do not want, for whatever reason they do not want or can not have it. We have an awesome thing called bodily autonomy. Meaning nobody can use our bodies without our consent. Even when we are DEAD. If you and I got in a car crash, and I died, and you desperately needed one of my organs to survive, you STILL couldn’t take that organ, even though it is of no use to me, to save your own life, unless I had consented when I was alive to be an organ donor. Therefore, claiming that a fetus has a right to use a pregnant person’s body for 9-10 months, has the right to take over all the pregnant person’s organs and body chemistry, has the right to change their body forever, not only does it give a fetus more rights than anyone else in the world, it also gives the pregnant person less rights than a dead body.

There is also a major flaw in your argument, which is “Except in cases of rape,” because in that statement, you are proving that it really isn’t about the fetus. If you truly believed that fetuses had rights, were sentient souls deserving of a chance at being born, it wouldn’t matter whether they were conceived through rape or not, would it? Fetuses that result from rape and fetuses that result from loving relationships are biologically the same, so why does one deserve rights in your opinion, and the other not? Perhaps you have internalized misogyny which causes you to believe that females deserve to be punished with unwanted pregnancies because they had sex.

I am pro-choice because I am pro-pregnant person. I am on the side of the living, breathing, loving, crying, feeling, struggling people who find themselves carrying a pregnancy when it is not convenient, and I am pro-giving them the option to protect themselves, their jobs, their goals, their bodies, and their pre-existing families, by supporting their access to a safe and legal abortion with no judgement. 

I love this.


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 #8 - The Hunchback of Notre Dame (1996)
Anonymous sent:

Well, When I met you I was hella attracted to you.

This makes me feel super good, but you should have told me then! Even if I didn’t reciprocate it’s always nice to hear things like that.

me on my way home from class: oh man i'm gonna get so much work done let me make a to do list and get that shit done quickly and effectively i'm so pumped
me the second i get home: nah
red flags


  • calling the legitimate anger of oppressed people “drama” or “hate”
  • referring to allocation of human rights as simply “politics”
  • referring to basic human empathy as “political correctness”
  • the childlike refusal to admit mistakes and throwing a literal tantrum
  • "it’s just my opinion"


Sleep is for the weak.

Go on Anonymous and tell me one thing you’ve been too scared to tell me, but have always wanted to say.

(Source: askboxmemes)

This could be fun or extremely sad
1: Name
2: Age
3: 3 Fears
4: 3 things I love
5: 4 turns on
6: 4 turns off
7: My best friend
8: Sexual orientation
9: My best first date
10: How tall am I
11: What do I miss
12: What time was I born
13: Favorite color
14: Do I have a crush
15: Favorite quote
16: Favorite place
17: Favorite food
18: Do I use sarcasm
19: What am I listening to right now
20: First thing I notice in new person
21: Shoe size
22: Eye color
23: Hair color
24: Favorite style of clothing
25: Ever done a prank call?
27: Meaning behind my URL
28: Favorite movie
29: Favorite song
30: Favorite band
31: How I feel right now
32: Someone I love
33: My current relationship status
34: My relationship with my parents
35: Favorite holiday
36: Tattoos and piercing i have
37: Tattoos and piercing i want
38: The reason I joined Tumblr
39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?
40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?
41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?
42: When did I last hold hands?
43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?
44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?
45: Where am I right now?
46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?
47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?
48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?
49: Am I excited for anything?
50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?
51: How often do I wear a fake smile?
52: When was the last time I hugged someone?
53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?
54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?
55: What is something I disliked about today?
56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
57: What do I think about most?
58: What’s my strangest talent?
59: Do I have any strange phobias?
60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
61: What was the last lie I told?
62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
64: Do I believe in magic?
65: Do I believe in luck?
66: What's the weather like right now?
67: What was the last book I've read?
68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?
69: Do I have any nicknames?
70: What was the worst injury I've ever had?
71: Do I spend money or save it?
72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue?
73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me?
74: Favorite animal?
75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?
76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?
77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?
78: How can you win my heart?
79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?
80: What is my favorite word?
81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr
82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?
83: Do I have any relatives in jail?
84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?
85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?
86: What is my current desktop picture?
87: Had sex?
88: Bought condoms?
89: Gotten pregnant?
90: Failed a class?
91: Kissed a boy?
92: Kissed a girl?
93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?
94: Had job?
95: Left the house without my wallet?
96: Bullied someone on the internet?
97: Had sex in public?
98: Played on a sports team?
99: Smoked weed?
100: Did drugs?
101: Smoked cigarettes?
102: Drank alcohol?
103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?
104: Been overweight?
105: Been underweight?
106: Been to a wedding?
107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?
108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?
109: Been outside my home country?
110: Gotten my heart broken?
111: Been to a professional sports game?
112: Broken a bone?
113: Cut myself?
114: Been to prom?
115: Been in airplane?
116: Fly by helicopter?
117: What concerts have I been to?
118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?
119: Learned another language?
120: Wore make up?
121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?
122: Had oral sex?
123: Dyed my hair?
124: Voted in a presidential election?
125: Rode in an ambulance?
126: Had a surgery?
127: Met someone famous?
128: Stalked someone on a social network?
129: Peed outside?
130: Been fishing?
131: Helped with charity?
132: Been rejected by a crush?
133: Broken a mirror?
134: What do I want for birthday?



For kirahvikorva!


i didn’t realize how badly i needed an infinite loop of nicki minaj and ellen degeneres saying different words for booty until suddenly i had it.